In the meanwhile, I am working on aforementioned Kakfa paper, as well as a paper on Robert Browning, as well as gearing up for a final in EVERY SINGLE CLASS. (How did that happen? Normally I have minimal amount of finals…)

This summer: design ktsia.com (this is pathetic, right now), go to Colorado for a few weeks, take Spanish1, Spanish2, and Business Calc, continue interning at BACK40, keep up with Benedict St. Market place, design a site for my friend Kristin, and MAYBE fly to to Switzerland and spend some time with my sister and new niece. (I could fit L’Albri in there, too right?)

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alert and confident

i’ve been productive for much of the day

i could do a lot more

. but so worn out

*buzz, and status, and tweets and chat*

i think that’s what makes me so

[.it's just too much for this still soul.]

Also: I actually wrote something today. Of course, I despise it now, but I was still happy with it when I turned it in. This was character sketch of Ktsia for my Intro to Business class. I took it seriously and spent a lot of time on it. However, the very nature of the assignment made it a bit cheesy. “Tell about your strengths and qualities.” Yay! I am organized, I am confident, I am smart, I am reflective! yay me! Well. So, that is not exactly what I wrote, but Ego-Hunters (and I am one) could find it disturbingly similar.

*goes and fine some eggs and bacon to eat* ;)

British Literature 2

Western Civ

Accounting

Professional Editing

Business Proficiency

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The last is a bit trite and sometimes boring. The others make me smile

Loses his eye sight, rejected by his fiancee.

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But George didn’t lose his Sight, and he choose to yield to restoration.

O Love that wilt not let me go,
I rest my weary soul in thee;
I give thee back the life I owe,
That in thine ocean depths its flow
May richer, fuller be.

O light that followest all my way,
I yield my flickering torch to thee;
My heart restores its borrowed ray,
That in thy sunshine’s blaze its day
May brighter, fairer be.

O Joy that seekest me through pain,
I cannot close my heart to thee;
I trace the rainbow through the rain,
And feel the promise is not vain,
That morn shall tearless be.

O Cross that liftest up my head,
I dare not ask to fly from thee;
I lay in dust life’s glory dead,
And from the ground there blossoms red
Life that shall endless be.

:)

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth, great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me

Now I’m swamped with this and that. There hasn’t been any walks. Just a passing nod here and there. And finding myself steadily unsatisfied. A part of me feels dead. Since I am attending a Christian college, I am required to attend weekly chapel with the student body. I thought maybe this would liven me up. Shouldn’t a worship service liven me up?

Afterwards, I found myself wishing I could be satisfied with a once a week, praise service. “Maybe something is wrong with me. Everyone else seems fine with this.”

No.

I don’t need a snack size Jesus, just to get me through to joy. I don’t need a once a week “fill me up.”

I need Jesus. To know Him myself. Heaven forbid I should ever be satisified with an “on the go” Jesus. Heaven forbid I should ever be satisifed with anything less than living passionately to *know* Him and to make *Him* known.

I want to see His face again.

“Oh, God, You are my God”

Oh, God, you are my God. Earnestly, I seek you.
My soul thirsts for you. My flesh yearns for you.
In a dry and weary land, where there is no water.

I remember you at night, through the watches of the midnight,
in the shadow of your wings, I sing because you help me.
My soul clings to you, and your hand upholds me.

You alone. You alone. You alone. You alone.

Katie Marie (me!)  and Kristin

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I’m still trying to sit still…only this time the class is life.

:)

Psalm 62:5
My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him.

Psalm 46:10
“Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.”

Psalm 37:7
Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.

Psalm 52:9
I will praise thee for ever, because thou hast done it: and I will wait on thy name; for it is good before thy saints.

[KJV]